tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3376615046211049913.post7963142503627253689..comments2013-08-31T22:34:52.498-05:00Comments on Living Whole Again: When Everyone Is Having a Baby Except YouAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01394581694718159853noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3376615046211049913.post-78807943524726721472011-09-22T17:32:59.622-05:002011-09-22T17:32:59.622-05:00Lindsey,
I love this post. It is so true. It is so...Lindsey,<br />I love this post. It is so true. It is so hard. I had a really hard week. One of my good friends told me that she was pregnant. I was really excited for her, happy to hear about how she told her husband, happy to hear her birthing plan, happy to hear the excitement in her voice. I brought her a bag of goodies and constantly bring her water at work. After getting home that night I had a complete breakdown. I was so angry at God, and then even more mad at myself for being mad at God. I cried and could not stop. My husband told me that it was ok to feel sad and angry at God and that God was sad with me. <br /><br />It really challenged my faith and also my own strength. I really only had my husband to talk to about my feelings. <br /><br />The day we found out that we had lost our second pregnancy was the same day we found out that we would have another addition to the family. My husbands brother was expecting his second child. I was so hurt, we couldn't even have one and other people were having multiple healthy happy pregnancies. I prayed that I would have morning sickness when we do finally get pregnant for the reassurance that it decreases your odds of miscarrying. I am so anxious about future pregnancies, like you mentioned above, I think I will worry at everything. Each funny feeling, each small cramp is the possibility of another loss. I am unsure how to make this feeling go away. I love for the simplicity and bliss that I see so many of my friends have. I see my friends sharing their birth announcements immediately and I am even more petrified. I don't want anyone to know about our pregnancy for fear of losing it soon afterwards. <br /><br />Its such a heavy feeling to have weighing my heart down. <br /><br />I am going to look into the book you mentioned. I feel like God has been really using me a lot lately in other peoples lives. Maybe that is what he wanted me to do. I am really trying to work on my own relationship with him and on my faith in goodness. <br /><br />I will pray for you and your family Lindsey. Your words are such a blessing to me, thank you for being so honest, so open, and so willing to share your life with so many. You are a blessing to know. <br /><br />AndreaAndrea and Matthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00201401165524471165noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3376615046211049913.post-49256246046843489932011-09-14T09:34:09.655-05:002011-09-14T09:34:09.655-05:00Sometimes we need to be pissed that sin exists. It...Sometimes we need to be pissed that sin exists. It is more the fault of man that we chose to sin in the garden than that God gave us our miscarriage. After Gala and I gave birth to our miscarried child, I wasn't mad at God. I took hope in the fact that my child was in heaven and my limited mind can't wrap around the idea that heaven is a better place than earth. That my baby (although not what I want) would much rather be with Jesus than be here. I think of the song "if you could see me now." and it reminds me that it is impossible for us to understand why God alows things to happen because we are finite beings that don't understand one ounce of the fullness of God. His thoughts are far above our thoughts. If we could see our children or even heaven for that matter, it would make so much more sense why sin sucks so bad and why God needs to come ASAP. I understand that feeling of pain and loss all too well. Holding my miscarried little boy after she gave birth to him was a feeling I hope to never feel again. However, my hurt isn't directed at God. I don't question why he allowed it to happen. Instead my hurt is directed toward sin, and the fact that it exists. If it weren't for sin, there would be no fallen world. No Tornadoes, Sunamis, Birth defects, death or miscarriages. Sin is the one to blame and therefore our hope of God coming back and rescuing us from the sin of this world (that we create) is the only thing I can hold on to. <br /><br />God please come back soon and remove the sin of this world, help us to understand our broken situation and our need for you. Let us look to you in the midst of the fruit of sin. Let the results of sin make us long for your enternal presence and the return of your son all the more.<br /><br />Amen.Brad Mosshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09268472013516559880noreply@blogger.com