Happy Birthday, Eden

A beautiful tribute my parents made for Eden last year    

 For some reason, all the dates that circle around Eden are more difficult than those that circle around Jessie and Ella. I don't know if it's because she was our first loss or because I allowed myself to get more attached or what, but for some reason, her due date and loss date sting a little bit more than the others...

This week should be Eden's first birthday. On Friday, she should turn one. A friend of mine had her beautiful daughter a couple weeks before we should have delivered Eden. At first, this made it really difficult. It was hard to see her and think I should have one too. It was hard to celebrate with her when all I wanted to do was roll into a ball and cry.

But now, I feel a weird sense of peace when I look at that sweet baby girl. As I watch her grow, I can see what mine should have looked like. When she smiles and laughs, I can imagine Eden doing the same thing. The only difference is that she's doing it in Heaven instead of here on earth.

Happy first birthday, Eden. I hope Jesus gives you a big piece of cake to enjoy on your special day.