Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Happy Birthday, Eden

A beautiful tribute my parents made for Eden last year    

 For some reason, all the dates that circle around Eden are more difficult than those that circle around Jessie and Ella. I don't know if it's because she was our first loss or because I allowed myself to get more attached or what, but for some reason, her due date and loss date sting a little bit more than the others...

This week should be Eden's first birthday. On Friday, she should turn one. A friend of mine had her beautiful daughter a couple weeks before we should have delivered Eden. At first, this made it really difficult. It was hard to see her and think I should have one too. It was hard to celebrate with her when all I wanted to do was roll into a ball and cry.

But now, I feel a weird sense of peace when I look at that sweet baby girl. As I watch her grow, I can see what mine should have looked like. When she smiles and laughs, I can imagine Eden doing the same thing. The only difference is that she's doing it in Heaven instead of here on earth.

Happy first birthday, Eden. I hope Jesus gives you a big piece of cake to enjoy on your special day.


  1. Thinking of you today Lindsey, and praying our babies can celebrate together in Heaven this week.

    1. Thanks so much, Bekki. I'm sure our babies are having a blast up there. Can't wait to meet them all!