The last few weeks have been difficult for me. We heard our baby's heartbeat at the ultrasound a few weeks ago, so I want to be excited. I think people assume I should be excited now. After all, the chances of a miscarriage after seeing a heartbeat go way down. Nonetheless, I've still been living in fear. I think I'm just waiting for the bottom to drop out. I'm waiting for the call from the doctor, the bad test result, or the bleeding to begin.
Even though I think it makes sense for me to be nervous, God has been teaching me these last few weeks that it's wrong for me to live in fear. I can't do anything to prevent a miscarriage. If something is going to go wrong, I can't stop it. So why ruin the time I have by fretting? Why steal all the joy from today by worrying about tomorrow? Why try to control something I can't control?
Jesus once asked his followers, "Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?" (Matthew 6: 27). As much as I wish worry could guarantee a good ultrasound tomorrow, it can't. So this week, I'm going to try not to worry. I'm going to try to stop living in fear. Want to join with me?