I haven't had a rough day in awhile, so I guess it's time. I think it's been building for awhile. I want so much to be content and happy. We have been so blessed in the last few months. But I can't ignore the hurt that still lives in my heart. I just miss my babies. No other way to describe it. And I'm petrified of another miscarriage when we decide to try again. What if I'm never ever to carry a baby to term again? How am I ever supposed to get to a place that I'm okay with that? This isn't how it's supposed to be. Not for us. Not for anyone.
I know I've posted this song before, but it just fits today. (The second video is a little bit longer but explains the backstory of the video.)